Utopia | I started to look at life in a different way

I was diagnosed in August of 2019, a month after I had turned 31. I notice a little lump on my breast not thinking nothing of it. This was sometimes in April/may. I did not do another breast exam like I usually do , it was until August I did another self exam. There was so much going on in my before August that paying attention to myself was the last thing on my mind. So mid August when I did my self exam, I noticed that the lump has gotten bigger. I became alarm and made an appointment right away with my PCP. After going through the process of testing including my biopsy, I got a call from my doctor to come in. I new then something was up. I knew it was not going to be good. I got the paperwork from the biopsy stating that I have cancer in my right breast where found the lump. I started to panic right there. I had gotten sick that week from so much fear. Things were running through my mind, thinking of my two young kids, my family. I started losing weight quickly due to the stress.  I went in for my consultation with my oncologist, after getting a referral from my doc. At that consultation, I  found out that my cancer was DCIS and that my lump was too big to save my right breast. This mean I will have to gave a mastectomy of my right breast. However, one thing that was in my favor was that my cancel had no invasive features and it was stage 0. Which was reassuring. My oncologist was also very optimistic and did not alarm me. I decided then I will rather have a double mastectomy. I didn’t want to risk the chance of developing cancer in my left breast as well.  I found peace and hope through God first, the support from my family second. When I first got the news, my husband showed me so me so much strength even though I knew he was also afraid he tried to hide it just for me. I started to look at life in a different way. enjoying every moments and trying to make more memories with my kids/family. I decided to start putting my self first and learning how not to consume my time with things that will not directly affect me. No matter what life throw at us.. ”We can only live for today and let God take care of the rest”.